Warning: this is gonna get mushy folks……..
Each year, I get older. Each year, I grow up just a little bit more. This year though, this is the year I am finally beginning to let my heart be light.
In my life, I have had only one hero: my grandfather. He was my hero, my father, my shoulder to lean on, my nagging parent, the glue that held my family together, and one of my best friends. He passed away recently after being sick for over a year. His presence defined Christmas for me my entire life. He WAS Christmas to me.
You know, I have spent over thirty years trying to make Christmas the grandest, most amazing, most wonderful time of the year. Perfect presents, Perfect lights, Perfect decorations, Perfect…… well….. everything. The one thing I never learned was how to enjoy each and every moment. Even the imperfect ones. What I wouldn’t give to go back to just one of them, take a deep breath, open my eyes, and just BE. Not freak out over how crazy my mom is, not worry that Jerdy is going to fly the coop because of my insane relatives, not give my grandfather a hug and think he’s going to be around forever. Just…….. BE. Just take it all in. Enjoy it. Let it go.
My brain still hasn’t really switched into Christmas mode yet this year. And at this point, it probably won’t. Not surprising I suppose. But I can feel myself letting go of all the bull shit. Letting go of all the stress, not caring about the gifts and the decorations, and just wanting to let everyone know that I love and appreciate them in my life. This is something that’s difficult for me to do. I’m not much of an “i love you” type of person. Love is hard for me to express. But I’m going to try this year. Because it’s important. And really……. all that matters right?
This year will be a year of appreciation, selflessness, love, and above all….. making the most of life. Living in the moment, finding the light when things seem dark.
So……. with all this said, Merry Christmas friends, loved ones, family, pets, bloggie peeps, everyone. Let your heart be light and let go of all the BS.
“My idea of Christmas, whether old fashioned or modern, is very simple: loving others. Come to think of it, why do we have to wait for Christmas to do that?” -Bob Hope
Wishing you all a very happy and safe holiday. Merry Christmas.
Lots of love,